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Life in the fast lane…
Life is definitely becoming more interesting for me now since slowing down. I never really noticed how fast my life was actually going. Stuck on autopilot, living life I had been conditioned to live with what seemed like no alternative. I never stopped to even consider that there could actually be more to my life. That wasn’t an option for me as I continued to be held in place by my early life conditioning and beliefs. My perception of life back then was much more limited, I listened to what others believed; believing I was keeping an open mind while deciding what was true for me. I started to struggle to understand how everything I thought I knew was now appearing to be so different in my reality. What was actually happening? I started to question my own sanity at one point. Is this real? Am I hearing things correctly? I found it more difficult to agree with the people around me who were once so familiar to me. How could this be? I was outgrowing everything I knew, not able to go back in time or stay in the life I had been accustomed to. My life was changing…I knew then it was time to move on…
Breaking down…
I was stuck in the box of limited beliefs. I knew I had to break free… somewhere in my heart, I knew that there should be more to this life, this existence. I have experienced many setbacks in my life but managed to bounce back each time becoming the new improved version of me. Each time thinking yes this is it…this is who I actually am…while at the same time still trying to figure out how to move forward and to survive in this world. Stepping out leaving everything I know behind. These experiences were what I now considered to be only ripples in the water preparing me for the tidal wave yet to come. No one ever told me that there would be more than one box! That I would have many more struggles along the way. I do know that the first time I broke free was defiantly challenging. I didn’t really understand what was happening to me. I was yet to find out.
What? There’s more!
I always remember the first major awakening experience I had. It was like someone pulling open a pair of curtains to reveal the real world which had been hidden from me until that moment. Nothing I had ever experienced prepared me for the pure shock to my system as reality struck me deep down inside, not knowing if I wanted to laugh or cry as I tried to process this new belief which had just hit me like a lightning bolt out of the blue. How could this be? This is not true! That moment I knew my life would never be the same again. I was feeling so angry, feeling deceived by the world and now questioning all the conditioning and beliefs I had ever learned or been told.
Then came the biggest question of all, who am I? 